SK - Nov. 3rd

Visibility: pretty clear
Length: LONG
Triggers: goings on in my head

I woke up as my JTE was saying, "wait, i'll go check." So I stayed in bed for a few minutes and tried to wait for the answer. But after trying to fall back asleep a few times, I was still waiting, so I got up. I think she was going to get approval for something, now I can't remember. At first I thought that was all for the night, but as soon as I stood up and started walking around, I remembered much more...

I had just had a premature baby. And we were having a reception for its' birth. We had rented a hall and there were 40-50 people there. I was so nervous about it. We were gonna give a power point presentation. My best friend and our friend from elementary school came and I started sobbing. THey didn't bring their husbands and family. But I knew they were there to support me. And I just sat their sobbing. I'm not sure where we went next. People asked to see the baby, and it was pinned to my chest because it was so small. Sometimes I forgot it was there. At one point I remember putting it down and accidently putting my camera on top of it because it was so small.

And then either in a seperate dream or in the same dream, I had a reunion with an ex. He was showing me pictures from when we were dating. None of the pictures were based on real experiences we had, but they were very clear and vivid. There was one of us and the Elm Creek Lifeguard staff sitting in front of my Dolph Dr. house in PDX. But the lifeguard staff was from MN and they weren't people I recognize. A few others were taken at a halloween party. I was dressed as a witch but there were lots of decorations and I was trying to hide in the decorations so you couldn't tell where I was, like a "Where's Waldo?" book. And there was more that I'll leave out, but somehow I knew I had lost a baby recently. So maybe the dreams were connected, but I don't remember the baby dying. Although I remember being told my friend's baby had died. As soon as I got up and checked my email, there was a message from this ex. I haven't gotten an email from him in months! Freaked me out!